Today is just a normal day for me. Except that I'm not sure why today I was so 'hardworking' and helped my mom to finish making dumplings for the upcoming dumpling festival. Also, the results of my second year second sem are released and sent to my house. I thought I'm ready to face my terrible result, but the truth is, I'm not. I'm still shock when I saw it. hahahah......
Since now it is holidays month, so my daily routine has turned up side down. Night becomes my day and day becomes my night. A night owl. And currently, I'm unable to sleep.
It's one year since I applied for the scholarship and I failed in this year January. I wonder how many people actually read my blog and get the tips from it? I think none. Since my blog is too 'secretive' due to some personal reasons.
Even thought half a year has passed, but the disappointment is definitely still there. Probably due to 'someone' has given me high hope. )(*#*@#^&^@#) HAHAHHA
Anyway, I have no other choices except to continue what I'm doing now. I pray to God that I can manage this challenge and if possible, I really hope I can love it. mmhhmmm......
Currently I'm happy because I do not have to think about the life during clinical posting.
But when new sem starts, can I cope with it? Answer is: me myself, I'm also not sure about it.
The 'hurtful' comments given by the supervisor has a big impact on me. I took around 2 months to let it go and now, I dont care about it anymore. I dont care what she said because I think that she has no right to say this to me since she is not me. So, I felt better. haha..Trying to hypnotize myself. Unsure whether this is a healthy way of thinking or not.
I do not know the path of my life. What will happen to me in the future. This goes to others as well. But my friends told me, once you have gone further, the path will become clearer. And you will know what you want or whether you're in the right track. If yes, congratulations. If not, then it is never too late to change to what you want to be as long as you have the determination. And I strongly believe this.
As we grow up, we have more things to consider. More stress, tension. To make ourselves happier, we just have to try to do something that we like. Example, playing sports, computer games, vacationing, dance in the club, eat, drink....
Never ever stress up yourself too much until you're unable to cope with it. Isnt it?
Keep our sanity.
