I am wondering whether I have any psycological problem or not. This is because I always worry about somethings unnecessarily. For example, right now, starting tomorrow, I'll become a third year physiotherapy student. I'm worry that I can't make it because until now :
1. I still feel that I am blank. I do not know what I've learned.
2. I feel insecure about the prospect and future of this course.
3. Neither I like nor dislike this course.
Are the reasons above reasonable?
1. Until now I still think that mostly what lecturers taught in lecture are not really helpful in practical/clinical posting.
2. There are so many physiotherapy graduates recently as a result of the mushrooming of the private institutions that offer this course. Even the current President of Malaysian Physiotherapy Association -MPA, 2010 says that there are too many physio are produced and he urges the government to stop giving license to the private colleges or universities to offer such course. Even though most of it only provide diploma program.
3. I have no true feelings about this course. During my first year, I dislike this course because this is not the course that I want to study. However, gradually, I started to think that this course is interesting because of a good lecturer. Next, comes a lousy lecturer that spoils my interest. This is not a big influence however. Then, during clinical posting, a supervisor that only will condemn you without giving you good advices that can help you in the future.
Maybe I'm too 'weak' mentally. Probably I should train myself intensively.
Reality is always so cruel. But sometimes we can't change it. Thus, we just have to learn to accept it.
