After the shock/blow to me, I still have not recover from the cruel fact that I failed.
I think I need time. In order for me to settle down. How long it will take? I hope the answer will be 'A.S.A.P'
Right now, suddenly I feel that I am young. Because I can graduate in another 2.5years if no 'accident' and I'll be just like the others, graduate at the 'normal' age.
However, the disappointment is still right inside my heart. shoo~~shoo~~ go away.
Yesterday night, I have torn all the papers related to the scholarship and I threw it today. I think that it was a good way to express my disappointment/anger/frustration towards the rejection.
I'm so naive.
I must live my life to the fullest.
Yet, things starting to make me concern again. The universities/colleges in Malaysia that offer physiotherapy are growing like mushroom recently. Will I able to compete with them? I must really work hard in order to make myself more competitive.
Then, the lecturer makes me worry about myself because he is inexperienced in teaching. What I should do? He doesn't even know what we should learn/ are included in our syllabus. Probably this is the failure of Malaysian education that the young are taught to get everything from their teachers.
Come on, I know I can do it. What I need is just time to make me calm and be a more open-minded person that will not look at each incident too seriously until make myself unhappy when there is a failure. It is part of me, my life as well as everybody's life.
Cheers~~
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
disappointed~~
so disappointed yesterday. The result for monbusho final nomination has been released...and I failed.
If I am correct, there are 12 nominees and only 3 are getting it. For undergrad level....Probably due to economic crisis, they have reduced the number of recipient. Last year there was 6 people.
Things aren't going smoothly for me...This makes me realize that without money, sometimes we can forget our dreams. This world is realitic isn't it?
I don't/can't blame anyone..This is my faith..What destined not to be mine, will not be mine.
So, life goes on even though currently I still feel very sad and disappointed. But compared to others, a girl, who tried for the scholarship twice, and failed twice at the final round, her 'wound' was probably deeper and more serious than me....
What I hope for now is the 3 success recipients, please do not reject this scholarship because somehow one year passed since the day we applied for this scholarship. People may change. But please appreciate this opportunity.
And for me, I hope I can recover asap. I should really start focusing what I need to do now. My physiotherapy course isn't that bad, right? (trying to brain-washing myself)
If I am correct, there are 12 nominees and only 3 are getting it. For undergrad level....Probably due to economic crisis, they have reduced the number of recipient. Last year there was 6 people.
Things aren't going smoothly for me...This makes me realize that without money, sometimes we can forget our dreams. This world is realitic isn't it?
I don't/can't blame anyone..This is my faith..What destined not to be mine, will not be mine.
So, life goes on even though currently I still feel very sad and disappointed. But compared to others, a girl, who tried for the scholarship twice, and failed twice at the final round, her 'wound' was probably deeper and more serious than me....
What I hope for now is the 3 success recipients, please do not reject this scholarship because somehow one year passed since the day we applied for this scholarship. People may change. But please appreciate this opportunity.
And for me, I hope I can recover asap. I should really start focusing what I need to do now. My physiotherapy course isn't that bad, right? (trying to brain-washing myself)
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
A day where the lecturer get pissed off~~
Today is an 'interesting' day for the whole physiotherapy students. Our lecturer get pissed off because of us. Woohoo~~ (*what a bad student)
Today is a 'memorable' day. So I planned to write it down so that one day in the future, when I read on this post, I can laugh on myself that we are so ignorant, naughty and whatsoever.
It is easy to tell my story in dialogue form. L-Lecturer, A- Student A, B- Student B, C-student C. O- Other
Today, we are having individual presentation on the disease/symptoms that we have chosen.
SCENE 1
A: ........ thank you. ( finished presentation)
L: so, what is the treatment for this disease?
A: err.......cryotherapy?
L: no, you are wrong.
B: so what are the treatments available for this?
L: you should go find it own your own. Don't ask me.
B: maybe you yourself also do not know the answer.
L: don't ask me silly question. Use your common sense. Logic. So, next person to present, you (B)
SCENE 2
B student get ready for the presentation.
L: you want to sit on my place? I give it to you.
B: No, I don't want.
B student presenting.
C: what's is xxxxx?
L: don't ask me, ask B since she is so pro in this.
B: it means ......................
L: no, you are wrong.............*&^#%$^^&#$&)*)(nagging)
SCENE 3
C student, a student this this L lecturer likes so much.
C: ......so that's all about it. Any question?
O: so what do you mean by.........?
L: oh, this mean....................................................
THE END
LOL, the moral of the story are:
1. This lecturer L is not really fair enough. But I know this is human nature. I will not blame him for that. However, I also dislike this L. Because he, as a lecturer, also plagiarize. And copy directly from other university's, other lecturers' power point presentation slides, use the ppt as his, use it to teach us, never bother to read first or to check whether the syllabus is suitable and correct. So, do you think this is right? I don't think so. I don't blame lecturers for not able to answer my questions everytime because I also know that human has his limits of knowledge. We can't be an expert in everything. If he tells us honestly that he doesn't know, and want us to go home and search for the answer, I will feel nothing. Really.
2. We, the students also should not be too kind to him anymore. Every semester, we have a survey named SPPK. It's some sort of questionaire that ask the students about the teaching method, lecturer, facilities, syllabus and other for a particular course/subject. Most of the students are so kind and they will give good marks for it. (1-very unsatisfied, 5- excellent). Each semester, the management department will analyse the results, have a meeting, discuss on how to improve or student's problem, try to find a solution for the complaints of the students and other. So, this time, I think, most of us, will do what we should do since the last semester.
Wow, My story for today, is quite long. LOL.
Well, hereby, I wish us good luck because the lecturer is not happy with us, so I don't expect him will let us go so freely. Definitely, this time, he will be very strict in marking the exam papers..haha...This is human nature. I will not blame him for that.
It seems like we really need a lot of luck.
Today is a 'memorable' day. So I planned to write it down so that one day in the future, when I read on this post, I can laugh on myself that we are so ignorant, naughty and whatsoever.
It is easy to tell my story in dialogue form. L-Lecturer, A- Student A, B- Student B, C-student C. O- Other
Today, we are having individual presentation on the disease/symptoms that we have chosen.
SCENE 1
A: ........ thank you. ( finished presentation)
L: so, what is the treatment for this disease?
A: err.......cryotherapy?
L: no, you are wrong.
B: so what are the treatments available for this?
L: you should go find it own your own. Don't ask me.
B: maybe you yourself also do not know the answer.
L: don't ask me silly question. Use your common sense. Logic. So, next person to present, you (B)
SCENE 2
B student get ready for the presentation.
L: you want to sit on my place? I give it to you.
B: No, I don't want.
B student presenting.
C: what's is xxxxx?
L: don't ask me, ask B since she is so pro in this.
B: it means ......................
L: no, you are wrong.............*&^#%$^^&#$&)*)(nagging)
SCENE 3
C student, a student this this L lecturer likes so much.
C: ......so that's all about it. Any question?
O: so what do you mean by.........?
L: oh, this mean....................................................
THE END
LOL, the moral of the story are:
1. This lecturer L is not really fair enough. But I know this is human nature. I will not blame him for that. However, I also dislike this L. Because he, as a lecturer, also plagiarize. And copy directly from other university's, other lecturers' power point presentation slides, use the ppt as his, use it to teach us, never bother to read first or to check whether the syllabus is suitable and correct. So, do you think this is right? I don't think so. I don't blame lecturers for not able to answer my questions everytime because I also know that human has his limits of knowledge. We can't be an expert in everything. If he tells us honestly that he doesn't know, and want us to go home and search for the answer, I will feel nothing. Really.
2. We, the students also should not be too kind to him anymore. Every semester, we have a survey named SPPK. It's some sort of questionaire that ask the students about the teaching method, lecturer, facilities, syllabus and other for a particular course/subject. Most of the students are so kind and they will give good marks for it. (1-very unsatisfied, 5- excellent). Each semester, the management department will analyse the results, have a meeting, discuss on how to improve or student's problem, try to find a solution for the complaints of the students and other. So, this time, I think, most of us, will do what we should do since the last semester.
Wow, My story for today, is quite long. LOL.
Well, hereby, I wish us good luck because the lecturer is not happy with us, so I don't expect him will let us go so freely. Definitely, this time, he will be very strict in marking the exam papers..haha...This is human nature. I will not blame him for that.
It seems like we really need a lot of luck.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
BOOKS books and Books
The new semester has started and this week will be the fourth week. However, I still have not get any books to for each of my subject yet! Should I buy, should I photostat? If I want to buy, but no stocks, how? Order? It will take a lot of time before the book reaches and at that time, I think most probably this semester will be ended soon. Photostat? Seems like I will disappoint the authors because they spent so much of time to write the book. Plus, personally, I hate to photostat books becauset the quality is so different. But this is the way to get access to the book in the fastest way. How?
How How How?
How How How?
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