For a long time I didn't update my blog. (even though I'm doubt that there will be people reading my blog. Neverthelesss, I still want to write what I want to write ^^)
Currently I'm in my 3rd year first semester. Finished this sem clinical posting and now I'm in the middle of my exam. LOL, I realized that most of the time when I was posting something, I always do that in the midnight and during exam time. Probably this is the most stressful and 'nothing-to-do' period.
I sincerely hope that people around the world can really live their lives happily. Even though if you are:
1. poor/living in poverty
2. in extreme environment-cold, hot, volcano erruption, earthquake, landslide, flood
3. alone/not marry/not dating anyone
4. wounded/injured
5. failed in study/exam/stress
6. sacked by boss in work/office politics/stress
7. etc etc
Because when you think you're so unfortunate, then you tend to self-pity and blame everyone on the things that happen to you. Isnt it?
The most important thing is, your family and real friends. If they are still with you, there is nothing for you to feel sad/depress/stress/the world is ended.
Life never goes according to your wish. Hence, it is challenging because sometimes you can't fight against it. Learn to accept it even though it is hard. And try to look in the positive way to make yourself happier.
We human beings can choose either to live happily or sadly. Of course, we want happiness. Therefore, live it happily~
There is still half glass of water more. (Half full) or
There is only half glass of water left. (half left)
Which one will you choose?
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Unwanted Worries, Stress, Depression
I am wondering whether I have any psycological problem or not. This is because I always worry about somethings unnecessarily. For example, right now, starting tomorrow, I'll become a third year physiotherapy student. I'm worry that I can't make it because until now :
1. I still feel that I am blank. I do not know what I've learned.
2. I feel insecure about the prospect and future of this course.
3. Neither I like nor dislike this course.
Are the reasons above reasonable?
1. Until now I still think that mostly what lecturers taught in lecture are not really helpful in practical/clinical posting.
2. There are so many physiotherapy graduates recently as a result of the mushrooming of the private institutions that offer this course. Even the current President of Malaysian Physiotherapy Association -MPA, 2010 says that there are too many physio are produced and he urges the government to stop giving license to the private colleges or universities to offer such course. Even though most of it only provide diploma program.
3. I have no true feelings about this course. During my first year, I dislike this course because this is not the course that I want to study. However, gradually, I started to think that this course is interesting because of a good lecturer. Next, comes a lousy lecturer that spoils my interest. This is not a big influence however. Then, during clinical posting, a supervisor that only will condemn you without giving you good advices that can help you in the future.
Maybe I'm too 'weak' mentally. Probably I should train myself intensively.
Reality is always so cruel. But sometimes we can't change it. Thus, we just have to learn to accept it.
1. I still feel that I am blank. I do not know what I've learned.
2. I feel insecure about the prospect and future of this course.
3. Neither I like nor dislike this course.
Are the reasons above reasonable?
1. Until now I still think that mostly what lecturers taught in lecture are not really helpful in practical/clinical posting.
2. There are so many physiotherapy graduates recently as a result of the mushrooming of the private institutions that offer this course. Even the current President of Malaysian Physiotherapy Association -MPA, 2010 says that there are too many physio are produced and he urges the government to stop giving license to the private colleges or universities to offer such course. Even though most of it only provide diploma program.
3. I have no true feelings about this course. During my first year, I dislike this course because this is not the course that I want to study. However, gradually, I started to think that this course is interesting because of a good lecturer. Next, comes a lousy lecturer that spoils my interest. This is not a big influence however. Then, during clinical posting, a supervisor that only will condemn you without giving you good advices that can help you in the future.
Maybe I'm too 'weak' mentally. Probably I should train myself intensively.
Reality is always so cruel. But sometimes we can't change it. Thus, we just have to learn to accept it.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
sleepless night
Today is just a normal day for me. Except that I'm not sure why today I was so 'hardworking' and helped my mom to finish making dumplings for the upcoming dumpling festival. Also, the results of my second year second sem are released and sent to my house. I thought I'm ready to face my terrible result, but the truth is, I'm not. I'm still shock when I saw it. hahahah......
Since now it is holidays month, so my daily routine has turned up side down. Night becomes my day and day becomes my night. A night owl. And currently, I'm unable to sleep.
It's one year since I applied for the scholarship and I failed in this year January. I wonder how many people actually read my blog and get the tips from it? I think none. Since my blog is too 'secretive' due to some personal reasons.
Even thought half a year has passed, but the disappointment is definitely still there. Probably due to 'someone' has given me high hope. )(*#*@#^&^@#) HAHAHHA
Anyway, I have no other choices except to continue what I'm doing now. I pray to God that I can manage this challenge and if possible, I really hope I can love it. mmhhmmm......
Currently I'm happy because I do not have to think about the life during clinical posting.
But when new sem starts, can I cope with it? Answer is: me myself, I'm also not sure about it.
The 'hurtful' comments given by the supervisor has a big impact on me. I took around 2 months to let it go and now, I dont care about it anymore. I dont care what she said because I think that she has no right to say this to me since she is not me. So, I felt better. haha..Trying to hypnotize myself. Unsure whether this is a healthy way of thinking or not.
I do not know the path of my life. What will happen to me in the future. This goes to others as well. But my friends told me, once you have gone further, the path will become clearer. And you will know what you want or whether you're in the right track. If yes, congratulations. If not, then it is never too late to change to what you want to be as long as you have the determination. And I strongly believe this.
As we grow up, we have more things to consider. More stress, tension. To make ourselves happier, we just have to try to do something that we like. Example, playing sports, computer games, vacationing, dance in the club, eat, drink....
Never ever stress up yourself too much until you're unable to cope with it. Isnt it?
Keep our sanity.
Since now it is holidays month, so my daily routine has turned up side down. Night becomes my day and day becomes my night. A night owl. And currently, I'm unable to sleep.
It's one year since I applied for the scholarship and I failed in this year January. I wonder how many people actually read my blog and get the tips from it? I think none. Since my blog is too 'secretive' due to some personal reasons.
Even thought half a year has passed, but the disappointment is definitely still there. Probably due to 'someone' has given me high hope. )(*#*@#^&^@#) HAHAHHA
Anyway, I have no other choices except to continue what I'm doing now. I pray to God that I can manage this challenge and if possible, I really hope I can love it. mmhhmmm......
Currently I'm happy because I do not have to think about the life during clinical posting.
But when new sem starts, can I cope with it? Answer is: me myself, I'm also not sure about it.
The 'hurtful' comments given by the supervisor has a big impact on me. I took around 2 months to let it go and now, I dont care about it anymore. I dont care what she said because I think that she has no right to say this to me since she is not me. So, I felt better. haha..Trying to hypnotize myself. Unsure whether this is a healthy way of thinking or not.
I do not know the path of my life. What will happen to me in the future. This goes to others as well. But my friends told me, once you have gone further, the path will become clearer. And you will know what you want or whether you're in the right track. If yes, congratulations. If not, then it is never too late to change to what you want to be as long as you have the determination. And I strongly believe this.
As we grow up, we have more things to consider. More stress, tension. To make ourselves happier, we just have to try to do something that we like. Example, playing sports, computer games, vacationing, dance in the club, eat, drink....
Never ever stress up yourself too much until you're unable to cope with it. Isnt it?
Keep our sanity.
Friday, April 9, 2010
Examination that never ends
Start from the Monday, my final exam for my 2nd year life will be started.
Surprisingly, this time I 'feel' that I do not care about it anymore. Even though I still study, but not as hardworking as before. Maybe I've opened up my mind that results will not decide anything for my future. So, as long as I pass, it should be ok.
Next sem will be a tougher year because there are 4 subjects that its credit hour is 4. Quite heavy for the students since we never have so many 4 credit hour at the same time. But this scene will continue until the final year where all the subjects are 5-credit-hour subjects.. '"=_=
Gambateh....!!
Surprisingly, this time I 'feel' that I do not care about it anymore. Even though I still study, but not as hardworking as before. Maybe I've opened up my mind that results will not decide anything for my future. So, as long as I pass, it should be ok.
Next sem will be a tougher year because there are 4 subjects that its credit hour is 4. Quite heavy for the students since we never have so many 4 credit hour at the same time. But this scene will continue until the final year where all the subjects are 5-credit-hour subjects.. '"=_=
Gambateh....!!
Friday, April 2, 2010
Finally posting is ended today
Today is the last day for my clinical posting. I was so happy because I do not need to go to the hospital setting anymore.
After 5 weeks of posting, my thought will be : Am I suitable to be a physiotherapist in the future. Currently, neither I like or hate this profession. I'm just neutral and I just think that this job is so tiring.
My second year will be ended very soon. Even though this week there was a carier talk in my campus. Representative from a hospital in Singapore came to my campus and try to recruit people. They are promoting their hospital and my course. But for me, the effect is reverse. I didn't feel that this is a very promising and secure job.
Even now that I am going to be a third year student soon in this coming July, I'm still thinking that: is it the right path for me?
Or I shouldn't think too much. I should just focus on what I'm doing now since I am unable to change the fact that I'm financially not able to change course to study in private colleges.
I just hope that I can be more brave.
After 5 weeks of posting, my thought will be : Am I suitable to be a physiotherapist in the future. Currently, neither I like or hate this profession. I'm just neutral and I just think that this job is so tiring.
My second year will be ended very soon. Even though this week there was a carier talk in my campus. Representative from a hospital in Singapore came to my campus and try to recruit people. They are promoting their hospital and my course. But for me, the effect is reverse. I didn't feel that this is a very promising and secure job.
Even now that I am going to be a third year student soon in this coming July, I'm still thinking that: is it the right path for me?
Or I shouldn't think too much. I should just focus on what I'm doing now since I am unable to change the fact that I'm financially not able to change course to study in private colleges.
I just hope that I can be more brave.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
I'll do my best in whatever that is in front of me now
This is currently that is in my mind. I'll finish my 4 years physiotherapy course if I have no opportunity to change course. However, will I practice it after I graduate? This is be a question mark.
For me, currently, what I'm thinking is this course is only an extra knowledge for me. Whether I want to be a physio in the future or not, it all depends on my 'happiness'. If I am happy working as a physio, so be it. I'll continue to be. On the contrary, if I'm not happy, then I will definitely change field. Happiness is the most important, isn't it? Otherwise I'll have to work in a field that I dislike so much, this will definitely affect my performace.
So, now, I'll do my best. The path in front of me, I'm not sure where it will lead me to. But, I'll do my best. This is a promise, and I hope I can keep it.
For me, currently, what I'm thinking is this course is only an extra knowledge for me. Whether I want to be a physio in the future or not, it all depends on my 'happiness'. If I am happy working as a physio, so be it. I'll continue to be. On the contrary, if I'm not happy, then I will definitely change field. Happiness is the most important, isn't it? Otherwise I'll have to work in a field that I dislike so much, this will definitely affect my performace.
So, now, I'll do my best. The path in front of me, I'm not sure where it will lead me to. But, I'll do my best. This is a promise, and I hope I can keep it.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
first practical exam today (OSPE)
Today is my first practical exam. There are 8 stations which tested on the students' skills on neurology, musculoskeletal, electrotherapy and cardiorespiratory.
Basically, what I can say is I have done badly. (I think)
Because many small small parts I missed out. For example, I didn't tell my 'patients' the functions and purposes of the tests that I wanted to do. I think this is due to my habit because since my clinical posting in PPUKM, I seldom/never tell my patients what are the purposes of the tests that I'm doing because I don't even have time to do my assessments. Sigh....wrong wrong habit. Must change it ASAP.
Next, there are something that I never heard before during the examination. i.e. alternating hip and knee flexion? What the hell is that? I only heard of alternating ankle movement (dorsi/plantarflexion), alternating hand supination and pronation but NOT hip and knee flexion.............???
Then, things taught to us during lecture are different from the expectation from the examiners. In practical sessions, we did exactly what the lecturer has taught us (ie, anterior lung surface marking until intercostal joint 6)but examiners said it is until joint 8. WHich one should we follow?
There are some examiners who are very kind and lenient and willing to give tips by asking you questions. But there are also some who only sat there without saying a single word.
The moral of the story: I should really improve my practical skills. I think my theory is ok but when it comes down to practical, sometimes, I do not know/sure how to do it. So, practise! Practise!
Another thing, I should really learn to read the questions properly. Because of the nervousness during exam, most of the students tend to be panicked and read the questions very very fast until they may misunderstand/overlook/miss out some important message in the questions. Such a simple thing, read. And I can't do it properly. How shame.....................''=_=""""""""
I hope I can really improve my practical skills. Practise!
Basically, what I can say is I have done badly. (I think)
Because many small small parts I missed out. For example, I didn't tell my 'patients' the functions and purposes of the tests that I wanted to do. I think this is due to my habit because since my clinical posting in PPUKM, I seldom/never tell my patients what are the purposes of the tests that I'm doing because I don't even have time to do my assessments. Sigh....wrong wrong habit. Must change it ASAP.
Next, there are something that I never heard before during the examination. i.e. alternating hip and knee flexion? What the hell is that? I only heard of alternating ankle movement (dorsi/plantarflexion), alternating hand supination and pronation but NOT hip and knee flexion.............???
Then, things taught to us during lecture are different from the expectation from the examiners. In practical sessions, we did exactly what the lecturer has taught us (ie, anterior lung surface marking until intercostal joint 6)but examiners said it is until joint 8. WHich one should we follow?
There are some examiners who are very kind and lenient and willing to give tips by asking you questions. But there are also some who only sat there without saying a single word.
The moral of the story: I should really improve my practical skills. I think my theory is ok but when it comes down to practical, sometimes, I do not know/sure how to do it. So, practise! Practise!
Another thing, I should really learn to read the questions properly. Because of the nervousness during exam, most of the students tend to be panicked and read the questions very very fast until they may misunderstand/overlook/miss out some important message in the questions. Such a simple thing, read. And I can't do it properly. How shame.....................''=_=""""""""
I hope I can really improve my practical skills. Practise!
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